What If

Nineteen wishes from Catrixenya's neighbors dream into me; I am deep inside a silk grey shirt three quarter wane gold button up, naked as I am not, his gentleness is a protective garment, I watch his every movement watching me. People speak words separating space for silence, my Beau is nearby, I care for him more than myself; I sit with legs folded underneath. My thoughts deviate curiosity; many of my boyfriend, separateness, vacillation, unseen earth, unknown realms, machine devaluation, Nicodemus, gravitation nevermore, sorrow, splendor, pleasure, worlds which come undone.

"What are you thinking about?"

"....too much...."

Light sound frequency articulation, individual zoning combination, liquid creation, aquatic mysteries....

"Must be something important...."

"Why don't you tell us?"

Madness, mindlessness, infestation, understanding, misunderstanding, cosmic calendars, time sequences, interwoven scenery, majesty....

"Would you tell Catrixenya?"

"Yes...."

"Maybe we should go."

"We'll see you later."

"...oh....."

Sadness, comfort, annoyance, aggravation, dreams, nightmares, hostility, fertility, numbness, astrological travels, astronomical destinations, another me....

"I'm worried."

"Me too."

My husband's hand is a tender ease of moons awaiting freedom, I shall follow him evermore, nevermore I desire wander, I shall always be with my Beau. Trains pass smoke, people rebel sustenance of rebellion, children smile, spirits confide, milk cremes a bath, lonely I am, lonely we dream, lonely we shall be until the nightmare ends, arise from dreamless sleep to bleach under three suns, all may die, attachments lie, honest mistakes cry, scream never to be heard again.

Kisses, sheets, restlessness, eradication, damnation, darkness, haven, deadliness, detriment, abolishment, admonishment, delusion, illusion, recognition....

"I can't sleep."

"Neither can I."

Frightening trouble shakes my bones to the core of earthen dome, migraines fluctuate blood vessels undermining a brain wishing to suffer not, wishing to ought not, I stare glazing vapor steam, my eyes pair revealing texture of compound fractal non reflective pyramids.

"How do they see out of those god damn things?"

"Mookie?"

"Them motherfuckers are huge!"

The biggest fucking fly I ever saw; his eyes are beautiful, claws adorn a mouth, my hand is a tiny man he perks for enthusiasm, I adore him.

"What the fuck they be eating?"

"Dream."

"They got some fucking crazy lips!"

"Coney Island....."

"How they be kissing?"

"I want to kiss her."

"How's come they ain't here?"

"I miss her."

"Did you say something? You was whispering...."

"I miss her!"

"I heard that! I don't know where she's at. I find you when I lose her; when I lose you I find her!"

"We all heard that!"

"Yeah boy!"

"You're going to get her! Don't worry!"

"It's not over until the fat lady sings!"

"What song?"

"Some country shit!"

"Aw fuck!"

"Long live the Queen!"

"Who's that?"

"I like her!"

"She's around here some place..."

"Did we lose her?"

"Nah.....she's always around....."

Deception, unbecoming, becoming, disappointment, depression, distress, denial, ambiguous manifestation, egotistical earnestness, radical religion, regret....

"The wolf!"

"The city's making her sick."

Blue Neptune memory, sand castle prince, my self belongs to him.

"Well I'll be damned I think she's on to something!"

"Must be a metaphor or simile."

"People and animals...."

"People can be animals...."

"Animals can be people."

Wrong, right, justice, injustice, termination, extermination, experimentation, warping presentation, ultimatum, education, society....

"All of which cycles....again....yes Miss....??"

"Pharaoh...."

"Victoria...."

"Like a banana tree?"

"?"

"Bananas grow continuously."

"I did not know that...."

"Does madness?"

"Bananas ripen and are good to eat."

"What of madness?"

"That is why I married you."

"?"

"You are a ripening madness."

"Are you sure?"

"We are the only ones here!"

"I came for your lecture."

"I am lecturing about plumbing."

"Twas interesting."

"I'm worried Victoria."

"I am too. Where's my Beau?"

"He's my friend."

"I know."

"He's not here anymore."

".....oh....."

"You are crying...."

"I miss him."

Pharaoh - he shall resurrect civilization, he shall recycle water for purity, he shall bring us new cities, he shall bring us new towers, he shall give us himself for social zoning, he is the nightmare of defection, he is a daywalker, he is a sorrowful husband of The Queen of Death, The Valley of The Dead knows him as gatekeeper amongst two sentinels, he protects mankind form misleading interpretation, his favored color is emerald green, he despises statues of likeness for dictatorship, he prefers cool water drinks, he enjoys walking sticks, he adores his wife as confidant and best friend, he bears no children unfortunately

Daywalker (for Jared & Jamal); one whose coronas reflect ultra violet spectrum from nine to six thousand, able to undergo suns from one to one thousand and one without swollen eyelid damage, host of curiosities for day, night is the daywalker's keeper however day is their domain for spectators, they pervade our peculiarities

"Your name shall be Nicodemus."

"Holy fuck Victoria I drank a lot of fucking blood."

"Ruby....."

"Amethyst....thus continue...."

"What am I to do for this earth?"

"He speaks Ruby!"

"You will bid them death."

"Tis my only desire."

"He speaks well."

"You are humorous."

"He likes me."

"Amethyst.......we need to remember this."

"How did he get here?"

"I come from the core long since forgotten; I am forsaken man."

"You look like us."

"You look like me."

"Wow.....Amethyst.....his eyes are....."

"Look at his....."

"Will you remember me?"

"This is a dream for damn sure."

"Nicodemus I drank a lot of blood."

"Completion?"

"What?"

"What?"

"You leave them?"

"....."

"What else are we supposed to do with them?"

"You are not ready yet."

"For what?"

"?!"

"You will suffer immensely."

"Will we survive?"

"We felt as though such will happen."

"I shall be your vengeance come what may."

"Regardless?"

"You cannot leave them anymore. This will be your last for now."

"What if not?"

"How do we stop?"

"If not....."

"Alright I'm done; I do not want to find out."

"Easier said than done....."

"If not I surrender with you until the final moment."

"We must surrender?"

"Yes."

"You as well?"

"I surrender your frequency until further ado."

"I don't think we can stop."

"....."

"I cannot stop either."

"Stop what?"

"I eat them."

"The left overs?"

"You leave them!"

"Wait until my wife hears about this."

"We're here Ruby."

"Nadia! Nicodemus I want you to meet my.....she looks.....wow....."

"Zen!"

"Cocoa Bear."

"Cocoa Bear?"

"That's me."

"....."

"What?"

"You look like a cocoa bear."

"He's my boo."

"What is that?"

"He's my dark surprise."

"More ways than one...."

"Isn't he cool?"

"Victoria....he is a rather serious gentleman."

"Nadia....you look...."

"Mocha Munch....."

"Mocha Munch?"

"That's me."

"This is a strange place for you to arise."

"Where am I?"

"My closet."

"Amethyst was looking for her garter belt."

"This must be it...."

"Twas on your head?"

"Warrior strap."

"It's my lingerie."

".....interesting....."

"He's my warrior.....my Milk Warrior....."

"Zen....he just met us...."

"Many children I assume."

"We want you to meet them."

"Ours too."

"We want you to meet everyone."

"Children!"

"Was that yours or mine?"

"We're in deep shit."

"Ebony and Lucidity."

"You know them?"

"We met before."

"Hi Nicodemus."

"Hey girl what's happening....."

"Glad you came back."

"Been a while....how's your husband?"

"He's building a ship."

"Water?"

"Something else...."

"Oh....oh....I'm hungry."

"He said we can't bite people and leave them hanging anymore....."

"Nicodemus....."

"Lucidity....."

"Already?"

"Yes."

"What does that mean?"

"Snow!"

"Oh it's just him."

"Huh?"

"He's the original."

"Original what?"

"You know....."

"....."

"Hey Kat."

"Hey...."

"She's big now."

"What are you doing here?"

"Remember what we spoke of when....."

"Oh.....oh!"

"Original what?"

"Doki."

"Kimono."

"Leona!"

"Toki."

"Kimodo."

"Original what?"

"Ambrosia what is he talking about?"

"Crystal?"

"You remember my husband...."

"Hey Tusk."

"Hey Nicodemus."

"Hey Fiasco."

"Hey!"

"Nadia....aw...."

"You're all messy."

"He's gone."

"He does that."

"Where did he go?"

"....."

"Original what?"

"He was one of our teachers before you both."

"Cocoa Bear."

"Strawberry Girl."

"I'm worried."

"I am too."

"Don't be."

"He came back."

"Where did you go?"

"I got tangled inside these things...."

"Those are stockings."

"Looks like fishing nets...."

"Yeah...."

"Okay."

"When it happens...."

"What?"

"When it happens wire yourselves to them."

"What?"

"Allow them entrance; you shall not feel any but possible confusion which will clear."

"What of you?"

"I come for them."

"When?"

"....."

"Who are they?"

"....."

"Where will our bodies be?"

"Blue and Pink."

"He is our abode."

"I am your temple."

"Nicodemus what of our children?"

"He's crying...."

"Dearest me."

"My dearest."

"I must find them."

"Where do they go?"

"We must surrender lest never experience enlightenment."

"Through death?"

"....."

"Nicodemus."

"Snow?"

"How will we remember?"

"How will you forget?"

"Through them...."

"Much to come."

Disappearance, disintegration, demulcents, ego manifestation, malevolence, violence, visual, audio, deaf, blind, secretion, sedation, enthusiasm, death....

Enoch - nightwalker, inversion's host, bat man, sword handler, marijuana farmer, winter guide, guardian of two human anomalies both foretold by vampire metaphysicists and quantum physicists, undertaker, tombstone marker, resurrector, simplicity, humanity, reverence, taste, unique fashion, jubilation, gigantic personality

"I wonder of the two human anomalies."

"Who would marry two hundred men?"

"We did."

"Does Enoch know?"

"He was talking about something with the bats....."

"Must of been."

Underworld, underground, hesitance, control, chaos, loss, fame, intimacy, touch, impression, division, multiplication, presentation, usage, finality....