Believe Something Damn it

"Victoria! Promise me you will never believe any of this shit...."

Chester pleads a rolled wad of notes jotted by thirteen doomed detriments; Thad is confidence for me, I squeeze a pudgy muscular hand, an arm reels me nearer to cry upon a Le Tigre mint blue polo shoulder. My distress is distress; I will be without my husband and children indefinitely.

"It's really absorbent material."

My smile is strange for his statement; wicked assurance winks a right lid.

"Will you get that eyebrow pierced for me?"

Braid is a prolific sadist needle artist, she exaggerates descriptions of torture while I focus upon diligence thwarting Thad's attention.

"Finished."

"That's it?!"

A tall boy is witnessed by marketplace merchants munching a loaf of artisan bread. They say he is adorably lean with a protruding belly, slim under cheeks with ruby red blushes.

"There you are."

"!"

"She found him!"

"Who is he Miss?"

"He's my brother."

"!"

Stephanie and David sit amongst a table of scribbled white paper treads; each page is an idea contributed from Dolly. Both simultaneously curse crammed spaces, numerous oddities, strange people, senselessness, confusion, political damnation, extreme obesity, and deadly delusion. I listen to their whispers; a child is sleeping inside a t-shirt hammock.

God Save the Queen

"How will she be able to...."

"What if she doesn't...."

"Fucking fat ugly bitch."

"She needs to get a god damn life of her own."

"She needs to get real."

I announce myself rattling a footstep; Steph and Dave rise a proper greeting. A seat awaits my sickness however uncomfortable. We sit looking at each other for moments of impossibilities and horrid worrisome convictions.

Each chipped organism entering the doll house misses whence they come; I feel the despair within my essential disappearance, I am here, I am unavailable, I reminisce, I watch, I experience drama, I placate delusion, I am chaotically inclined to suffer regardless. Thoughtful projected imagery reveals gaps hosting sentiments, neighbors, selective spots, hum drum residential adaptation, cognitive senses, and contemplative captivity. The world we know is often one we miss; the world I know is neither here nor there, tis a place.

"She wants to believe her business is a big deal."

"And that she's important and can do whatever she wants."

I understand my husband, daughter, son, mother, father, sister, twin, friends, and any other surrendering adoration listens to the same dullness anticipating the worst possible outcome, destruction of light and sound.

"Give it to them; everything they ask for a thousand fold."

We organize several factual systematic corporate logical functions such as; freight, inventory, online sources, commercialization, products, office equipment, location, customer incentive, vendors, pricing, impressionistic value.

"Promise me Victoria! Promise me you will never believe any of this shit for a moment's sake!"

Chester cries miserable sorrow inside a pillow; he fears for me to be lost inside a nightmare he cannot partake. Suddenly brilliance shines epiphany, he sweetens silence; I watch him turn to look at me, he appears to be dead.

"They are unable to stay inside the scenery; they must come out to stay alive."

"We must stay inside of it?"

"That's what the fat crew agreed to....."

"Three of them are not overwhelmingly obese."

"It's mostly those two women."

Simon and Simone graph the statistical area devising a secret plan; husband and wife desire a shy kiss, abruptly two mature voices speak.

"That is where....."

I lean against the entryway column watching Avie and Cordelia cheerfully chatting.

"I wish it was softer."

"Me too."

Thad rolls a widescreen television facing a sofa resting my back. A few strange familiarities are seen walking throughout the Kingdom of Death. Rolf set aside fifty-three thousand U.S. dollars for an obvious eye catcher; the infamous crew stops picking up suspicion.

"Well....what the....."

"Whose dough is this?"

"That's how they make pizza!"

"George....."

"Why in the hell would anybody leave it here for?"

"I don't want it...."

"What's it good for?"

"Can't just leave it here!"

"What if one of them S.U.V. people get it and do something stupid like spilling oil or blowing up houses?"

"Henry's right! We's got to get this out of here now!"

Economically savvy crates of grocery markdowns, thrift clothing goods wholesale, out of season gardening supplies for environmental storage, solar powered investment, a few bills unseen by conglomerate madness; they separate from an argument, I watch each man and woman stall for tearful consideration, the thought of losing everything.

My Husband and I dream of an island for us to share as one; many possible expenditures later we save enough for a small upright Atlantic volcanic sediment.

"I just need you."

"Me too."

"Pantera!"

Jill is morbid joy galloping towards me, she smiles for my boyfriend; we invite her to talk.

"Hi...."

"Hiya!"

"....."

"I resolved everything!"

We share a few cups of water fresh lemon squeeze, cantaloupe blocks, pineapple rings, grapes, wild cherries, and flax seed oil conditioned rigatoni without sauce.

"Jill......"

"I feel great! That was the best meal I ever ate."

I adore her; I face the left to wipe two crimson tears, one clear.

Ronald charms me into a possible ultimatum; he presents a pink tuna steak platter.

"You got to promise me no matter what happens you won't....."

"I will die without my husband."

".....I.....I'm scared about that."

"I rather have him than anything."

David reveals a duplicated fritz, recorded likeness of The Thirteen Tricks' childhood recollection is available inside falsified realities; if they persist a switch is available to cross their frequencies with ours, there is no escape. A visual series of illusions screen slide; action figures depicting Chad's exact likeness, a doll for mine, broken wooden frames, buffaloes roaming freely, torturous dogs, terrifying cats, excrement walls, mirrored convections, slaughter house jobs, religious clothing, decomposing water wells, dying trees, infertile land, leaky roofs, constant hail damage from chosen geography, bloody sheets. We refuse the devices, we rather be nonexistent than induce other's suffering; we shall not be the stupidity of enemies.

"I'm ready to go Ophelia."

"I will think of you when I desire death."

"I don't think you can die."

"....."

"There's just one thing I wish I could of done....."

"?"

"It's not worth it."

"....."

"I used to hate her but now I don't give a shit."

"Hhhmmm....."

"I sure as hell hope to see you again."

"I as well."

"And your husband boyfriend."

"....."

"I hate for what she's going to do."

"Me too."

"Why don't you just....."

"Not worth it."

"Guess she ain't worth nothing."

"Hhmmm....."

"I never said that about anybody before."

"I trust your opinion."

"After we talked about being peoples and shit my heart changed."

"How?"

"I thought about why I felt stuck all the time and figured it out!"

"?"

"Cause I never let go of being angry. I fucked over a lot of people. I went to all three of them and made amends the best I know how."

"Three....."

"That's a whole hell of a lot! Big things too! I always swore to myself after what happened I'd never hurt anybody but myself. I didn't know myself was anybody else until I met you!"

"I forget such for moments I lose myself."

"Shit."

"....."

"She ain't ever going to change."

"I believe you."

"I don't ever want to see her again; I hope she don't go to the same place I do."

"....."

"She don't even know she's crazy!"

"....."

"I mean I thought I was crazy! She's fucking insane! Why don't they do nothing about it?"

"I recall a ten page statement sitting upon my teacher's desk."

"That one you said studied people's behaviorisms?"

"Yes.....a woman was brought to our attention. The doctor called her Marilyn."

"Yep that was her alright....what happened?"

"They wanted to institutionalize her indefinitely."

"?!"

"We do not condone torment for asylum."

"No matter who it is?"

"Tis similar to prison."

"I didn't know that."

"Bars, locking mechanisms, meals are similar criteria if not the same, medication is involuntary; they are not permitted to leave."

"You been to jail before?"

"I spent eight human years inside a British prison, eleven inside an Arabian hostage situation, twenty-two inside a Mongolian federal institution, and I cannot remember for Greenland."

"Well god damn."

"....."

"She don't know nothing about you."

"....."

"What did you do?"

"I punched a politician that spit at my husband, I fought a slave trader, freed a thousand horses from disgusting conditions, and for the last I....."

"You're a vampire."

"....."

"I knew it all along."

"?"

"I saw some painting of you before."

"?!"

"You was sitting on a throne with a bunch of skulls."

"....."

"They said that thing was a thousand years old!"

"....."

"I bought it at an auction."

"?"

"I gave it to some historian to preserve."

"What's his name?"

"Jared."

"Hhmmm....."

"His name means infatuation with sacrificial blood."

"Who told you that?"

"....."

"Also imples self enlightenment."

"That's probably why he does that."

"What does he do?"

"Collect pictures of all of you except he said all of his was a lady he calls Sharla and there's another one just like her but he can't find none of her except for one of them both standing with a white haired farmer."

"Enoch."

".....I'll be damned."

"What else did he say?"

"He said Sharla's a queen, a real one, not like them hoity toity peoples."

"Hhhmmm....."

"He said she's a hell a pissed off about some people fucking with pink and blue colors and he said the same peoples fuck with her husband and her family too."

"Interesting....."

"He said she's into everything! He thinks she's still alive somewhere...."

"Does he want to meet her?"

"I reckon he sure as hell does."

"What about you?"

"I hope she finds them."

"?"

"He said some martian comes and steals them."

"A martian?"

"Somebody that comes from marshes; he said it's written down somewhere."

"How does it end?"

"He's real sad about her."

"....."

"He never did say it ended or not."

"....."

"She'll be alright."

"You think so?"

"I know so."

"How?"

"Nobody fucks with a real queen and gets very far."

"There are two queens; which does he call her?"

"How did you know that?"

"....."

"Well you's a damn cat I know they know some wild shit....."

"Tis the nature of worlds which come undone."

"Damned.....or was it Dead....."

"What does she look like?"

".....you!"

"Would you like a glass of water?"

"I sure as hell would."

"Okay."

"Don't let them bury me inside one of them boxes!"

"There is ice in it."

"Inside the box?"

"The glass....."

"Oh that's fine with me."

"Cremation?"

"Is that when they burn you?"

"Yes."

"I'm frightened of fires."

"....."

"You'll figure it out."

"....."

"If you ever find that queen will you tell her something for me?"

"Sure....."

"Ain't nobody know you better than yourself."

"What if she's married?"

"Like you?"

"Yes."

"Well he is yourself so I reckon the same for her."

"What if she has many children?"

"They the same too."

"What about you?"

"I feel like I know her really damn well!"

"Hhhmmm....."

"I wander what she would do about Marsha."

"Me too....."

"She'll help you out with that."

"You think so?"

"I know so."

"Would you like some more water?"

"I thought I was going to die already! Damn! I invited you over here away from your boyfriend and I'm a laying in this damn bed all ready to go but shit."

"What if there is no body?"

"!"

"?"

I return to an empty house; there is a note centering the fireplace.

My Pleasure, I went to Texas. They are after us; Rosa invited me to discuss. Wait for me.

"Ronald....."

"I'm really scared girl."

"I know."

"Shit.....what am I going to do without you?"

"....."

"I need you to stick around even if things get really bad."

"I can't promise you that."

"How's come?"

"If anybody hurts my husband I will die."

"How?"

"....."

"....."

"I cannot be without him."

"....."

"If none of you can understand that....."

"Are you a patient person?"

"I am neither impatient or patient."

"God damn it."

"I know you are going to hurt him."

"....."

"Why?"

"I'm a selfish, that's why."

"Then this is the last moment we meet."

"I ain't saying bye."

"Bye."

Stephanie's observation exceeds eventual education; she holds my hand leading me to a bench we solemnly sit.

"....."

"What is it my dear?"

"I'm worried about you."

"Me?"

"You!"

"Elaborate...."

"I read a play."

"Which one?"

"Your teacher gave it to me."

"....."

"Juliet?"

"Yes?"

"Fuck!"

Enoch's finger metronomes his right hand while another cups Yasmeen's left elbow.

"So...."

"....."

"You are the duo everybody is talking about?"

"Enoch!"

"Bianca."

"Enoch."

"Bianca!"

"There are two of us."

"....."

"Tis simple explanation!"

"They said two women chained the wall of that god damned embassy's prison then pulled it with one of their armed delivery trucks!"

"Did it work?"

"Yes!"

"....."

"They replaced their flags with purple and red!"

"Yasmeen did you see the lovely package Regina sent us?"

"Oh yes and Micah....."

"!"

"Girls....."

"Guardian....."

"There is another one across town."

"Uh....."

"Enoch!"

"You need a bigger truck."

"!"

"Oh."

"I got you two suits."

"What color?"

"Are they fashionable?"

"Black."

"Where do these come from?"

"There is a balaclava."

"We call them....."

"He always does that."

"Suspense....."

"Ninjas."

"What does that mean?"

"Bad Girls."

Yazzy & Bebe, Ten Grin found an explosive, I threw it on top of a red white and blue metal thing. Was that bad? - Triple Dimple

"Micah...."

"Yazz?"

"There are a lot of buttons here."

"Ooooh!"

"Regina you shouldn't smoke that here."

"There is no sign!"

"That one says something about explosives."

"Hhhmmm....."

"I pushed them all except for that one; it says clearance."

"Why not?"

"I don't want any of their cheap clothes!"

"Yazz what is that?"

"It makes everything look green."

"Is that how they see?"

"That was rather loud."

"Should we run?"

"Let's skip."

"And hold hands?"

"Yes!"

Wife, I met a goat herder.

Husband, do tell.

Wife, I am dreaming about sticky notes.

Husband, I have four thousand and thirteen pads left.

Wife, where did you get them from?

Husband, the goat herder.

Girlfriend, what a strange dream.

Boyfriend, I miss you.

Girlfriend, I can't let you marry him.

Boyfriend, why?

Girlfriend, I can't say.

Boyfriend, I miss you.

Girlfriend, will I ever see you again?

Boyfriend, I don't know.

Girlfriend, is this the last?

Husband, you are always on my mind.

Wife, you are always inside my heart.

"Jester I keep dreaming about fucking sticky notes."

"Medusa there is one on my forehead."

KEEP OUT

"Avie if you ever feel the same way I do about daddy I want you to marry him."

"I already got too many mom."

"Do it for me."

"I'll think about it."

Stephanie's palm reveals a metallic circular disk; she admits tis a controlling mechanism for the doll house. I inspect the piece; mercury is over eighty percent materialism, acid forms from chemical induction, poisoned blood is ninety percent plausible however we do not care for percentage unless synthetic.

"I am going to call you Sweet Pea."

"Where does that come from?"

"Popeye and Olive Oil."

"?"

"It's a cartoon."

"What does Sweet Pea do?"

"He gets lost but Popeye always saves him."

"What about Olive Oil?"

"She misses him and gets really excited to see him."

"What does Sweet Pea look like?"

"A little guy wearing pajamas."

"What does Popeye do?"

"He's a sailor."

"Olive Oil?"

"She's a singer."

"You know me somehow?"

"That's what your folks are like?"

"Yes."

"If any of those damn battery piss fuckers mess with you I will clobber them with a shoe!"

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"It belongs to Frankenstein."

"What?"

"It's an anvil."

"!"

"They just let me out of the hospital."

"Oh...."

"It was on an island called Jamaica."

"What were you there for?"

"They said I got multiple personalities."

"....."

"You think so?"

"No."

"What do you think I got?"

"Yourself."

"You too."

"How will I know what is going on?"

"I'll leave you hints and clues."

"Like what?"

"You'll see."

".....I'm really worried."

"It'll be okay."

"What if something happens to you?"

"Some guy's going to kill me."

"?"

"With a frying pan."

"Why let it happen?"

"I got to."

"Why?"

"So you know what's going on!"

"Is this a dream?"

"I got to go."

"Why?"

"My favorite show is on!"

"What is that?"

"Popeye!"

Medusa, I tied up that fat lady and put her inside an empty box train. I don't know where it's going; it was fucking ugly. I took a picture of you crying. I hope you remember me; I think I'm dreaming.

Jester, I hate fucking sticky note dreams.

Medusa, I miss my wife.

Jester, I miss my husband.

"What are those things Victoria?"

"Gutted guitar switches."

"Will it make her angry?"

"No....."

"....."

"She will figure it out eventually."

"Then what?"

"She will feel like shit."

"Like you?"

"Yeah....."

"I did something else."

"What?"

"....."

"?"

"She's going to lose everything Victoria. Promise me you won't....."

"What if I lose everything?"

"We secured most of it."

"There is no security for any world."

Stephanie exits assuredly; she laughs a wicked B movie tracer.

"Do you know what Stephanie did Victoria?"

"Thad.....why are you sitting inside a dark corner?"

"I was playing with this....."

"A video camera?"

"Something like that."

"What does it do?"

"....."

"Where is my husband?"

"....."

"Thad?"

"Victoria I implanted an explosive inside her spinal cord."

"What?"

"It will snap if....."

"If what?"

"If you kill yourself."

"Shit!"

"....."

"Where is Chester?"

"I'm coming."

"Did you know about this?"

"Yeah."

"....."

"Juliet?"

"Yes?"

"Fucking shit!"

"God damn it!"

"Did she do it again?"

"Yeah!"

"Fuck!"