Cruel Canvas

My Beau and I accept an impulsive invitation for a convention hosted by partial parliament pageantry of polygamy; we are scandalous fashion. His attire is periwinkle silken woven embroidery implicating a gentleman underneath my dress; my pink cotton blend spandex asymmetrical splits a left high leg. Our company is much anticipated by a wife hiding her husband; he is dearer to her than anyone, she tells me the secret of secrets is kept within from everyone. I watch her steps towards us hesitant of guests nearing closer. A tuxedo clad man curses an inflammatory mouth; he is stricken with sexually transmitted disease. I inspect my husband's garment noticing a wad of fuming puss.

Thad and Stephanie debate with Chester quickly igniting a spat of argument; they wish to show me pictures of Texas for educational reminisce prior to surrendering three bands of frequency, we consist of an infinite amount unfortunately these few link to ego specimens of symbiosis tying formidable sense. No person, thing, being, creature, etc. is able to synthesize or gather every band of our disposition as existence or nonexistence.

"Ruby I just saw a face in the fucked water."

"I did too."

"Twas a woman."

"Yes....."

"Was she crying?"

"Yes....."

"Let's drain this shit and burn the evaporates."

"I don't think that will rid of it."

"Do you think those women we saw know how to......"

"Yes I do believe so......"

"This is temporary."

"Unfortunately we are of this nature for now.....so is earth."

"Is this a dream?"

"......"

"They were crying."

"They are not the only ones....."

"Theirs is different....."

"Ours as well....."

"These peculiarities make a world."

"Tis no longer for any of us......"

"From now on we shall experience that which we never thought or expected."

"We shall encounter people who desperate normalcy."

"What is normal?"

"Want of popularity and control."

"Is that what those women want?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

"They feel ignorant......"

"Innocence is not ignorance until manipulated for selfishness."

"Selfishness is absolute ignorance and devaluation."

Nicodemus - Both The Queen of Darkness and The Queen of The Damned bid this man their combined likeness for undergoing the task of annihilation; he shall exterminate every mortal left after the number zero, none shall recognize him, he is the Antichrist, he is the forsaken, he is the forbidden, he is the exiled, he is the imprisoned, he shall come as a thief in the night, we shall hear his voice and see his face, all will end upon his arrival, all will begin again when he is a filled vessel, searching for him is death and damnation, he is summoned only by The Queen of The Abyss and The Queen of The Dead, thou shalt conceive no other, he abides inside unseen shadows, darkness is his abode, he cannot be killed, he cannot be injured, any test of which shall fail miserably, for all shall know him soon as Nicodemus The Annihilator of Common Man and Woman

Tex is a ghostly apparition opening his left hand into a winding field of pink and blue lashes, the valley sleeps for my dream; I touch his burgundy wine leather full length cloaked garment patched with deep grey stitches, his trousers are leather gripped into protective black thick skinned mystery, his boots bear rattlesnake faces, an earthen beige turtleneck buttons three gold coins from Greece, I miss him as the blood of my own.

"Vicki hey there don't cry okay? This is where I'm from......I want you to remember me when you're the saddest and loneliest person on this earth. I put myself inside the frequency machine so you know where you are when they do that thing to you.....I won't be around but those people are going to be swallowing some kind of disc trying to make you think they're somebody else........hey I met this little girl once by a well.....some people were giving her a hard time, she asked me why we're so isolated, and why people act like that. I told her The Queen of The Damned would tell her, I told her she was you Victoria. I sure as hell am going to miss you but I got to go now......time's running out for them, you know who I'm talking about, they're suffering hell of a lot more than we ever could, I try not to think that's our fault, nobody knows except us, except us.......shit.....I'm missing you.....I miss you....."

I scream bloody droplets for my butterfly voice to heal six moons of silence; the strain of vocalization scrambles my ability to sing, I often would for Tex when his sorrow is a world unraveling regret upon mistaken identity.

"I don't know what's wrong with people.....I wonder if I'm just like them......maybe that's why......you ever wonder that Vicki......god damn it......makes me so angry......so angry......"

"I wonder always for a self lost inside another realm."

"If you ever get caught there I'm going to spread myself out so you know where I am."

"I can't go there without you."

"I know.....I been everywhere with you except where I'm from."

"What is your name?"

"Well you call me Tex don't you?"

"Yes....."

"My name is Texas."

"Is that why....."

"Sure is....."

"What of Ludwig?"

"He was my grandfather......I guess....."

"?"

"He molested me."

"....."

"A buffalo was watching."

"....."

"Police didn't do a thing."

"....."

"Nobody gave a damn.......except for him."

"Who was he?"

"He smoked green leaf cigars a lot."

"What happened?"

"He went over to Ludwig and started to tell him what he did was.......wrong......"

"....."

"They fought and both of them....."

"Where did you go?"

"Those damn crazy looking cows fed me and taught me how to do a bunch of stuff."

"Interesting....."

"Some people came once and tried to kill them with guns."

"....."

"That's when I figured out what I was."

"How?"

"My back twisted around and my leg jointed four notches into an umbrella.....they just laid there for a while.....the buffalo came to get them.....I swear I heard them talking.....the cows....they were saying things....."

"Like what?"

"Told me I was chosen to protect people.....told me I was a frozen warrior.....told me there was a Queen waiting for me.....told me her name was Sharla.....I wonder where she's at....."

"What else did they say?"

"Told me there was another guy like me; they call him Annex."

"....."

"Told me Sharla was going to suffer for some lady who don't know any better.....they called her a scientific name.....sounds like Sebastion."

"Sebaceous....."

"Yeah....sure was.....what does that mean?"

"Unclean."

"Damn."

"What kind of suffering?"

"They said all the buffalo was going to die and the whole earth if that lady don't figure it out. They said she don't care about nothing.....they said she don't care about anybody.....she thinks somebody owes her something.....she thinks that's Sharla I reckon....how the hell did she come to that conclusion?"

"I don't know."

"Neither does she. If she don't understand then....."

"There must be others."

"Yeah they said close to twenty-five, the number don't matter, a few of them were going to die, they said these people went through what I went through.....I don't understand why they would want to hurt anybody after being hurt so much."

"What's the little girl's name?"

"Hymen.....kind of peculiar.....I told her the same thing happened to me and I wasn't going to let that happen to anybody else.....shit though I got this bad problem Vicki we need to talk about."

"What is that?"

"You know when you bite people and shit....."

"Yeah...."

"Well mine start thinking and acting like....."

"Like what?"

"Like me."

"Dearest me."

"I think there's something in my body that secretes a fluid....."

".....fuck...."

"You are going to be mad at me. That's why I better disappear for a while til you ain't anymore."

"....fuck....fuck....fuck.....fuck....."

"Alright that's five fucks, I better mozy along now...."

"Tex...."

"....."

"Are you saying there are hundreds of people out there....."

"Oh shit more than that! Been about three hundred thousand.....maybe more....."

"....."

"I'm not sure why that happens. I think it's cause I want to disappear sometimes.....rather have somebody else trouble themselves for me.....I seen the ones you and Rube do.....those fuckers just act god damn.....they just....they're out of it but they do what they supposed to.....some of them don't....they just....well god damn Vicki. I wander what Sharla does......"

Unknown Anomaly (New World Sector Thirteen Category Seven) - this man is the vengeance of child molestation, he guards the outskirts of cemeteries, he is the sentinel of innocence, he is the apparition of dead infants, he is described to be armored with leather head to toe however wears a hat with partial face guard only at night, he is a daywalker, he is a shadow traveler, he is known to be soft spoken, he is known to be gentle, he wears a necklace adorned with his enemy's teeth when fighting, he is one of two known warriors in this mysterious region, his kingdom is that of The Queen of The Damned and that of The Queen of Darkness however this particular area is thought to be a breach of majesty therefore occurrences of violent manipulation such as children is common, we bid both Queens to journey this realm despite the danger for our research concludes thus is the vortex of worlds, unfortunately further investigation arises a chemical reaction for this peculiar place - ego manifestation

"That's partially why that happened Yazz."

"Bianca....."

"Yes....."

"This sucks."

"No shit."

A punch mightier than sixteen thousand three hundred and ninety-one laboratory tangent mice herds into a hideous profile; I am promptly surrounded by three ushers, I surrender from worry for my husband's life. Ambrosia inspects the man laying on the final railing, a stranger touches his silken shoulder, instinctively six rounds of uppercuts slashes a partner for the politician yelling scabies and chlamydia; my companion concerns for his eldest son, he confesses and we are both led downstairs into a regarded cell for propagating pagans.

"There is a sign that says Pagans above the bars."

"We will share this box together."

"I miss Ruby."

"I miss Crystal."

"Oh you talking about those two across the street? Yeah....they did the same thing."

Eight human years pass into masculine separation prior to which felt possibly important; my best friend is a man of his own nature, I doubt my influence encourages otherwise, he is the freedom of individuality. We are permitted to wander the underground passage, our guard understands the cell is a cramp of physical misery; we uncover carved images, writings, and rants of seclusion.

"Amber what the hell are those....."

"Some sort of bovine."

"What is it doing?"

"Looks to be playing with children....."

"Those ones seem to fear them....."

"They must be rotten."

"What does the writing say....."

"Something about rejuvenation, black holes, blasphemous imagination, and......"

"Fiona."

My anger frustrates an abrupt exit upon a man announcing fluctuating laws; I curse every officer gathered at our destination, they are relocating us. I stomp a pace of tiger madness for the bump of tassels I am arrested, none of mine to witness, I am taken alone.

"That woman is a miserable bitch."

I retort with a hazy white nightmarish gap of figurine sadness; the voice is ten thousand whispers, I speak out loud until the butterfly tires itself to pain sorrowful wings.

"She is a wonderful person."

"Fucking disgusting bitch."

"She is very clean and healthy."

"She eats shit and rolls in it too."

"What is this place?"

"Do you see that shit over there? Will you eat it and roll in it for her?"

"What good will it do?"

"What if it is her freedom?"

"Then I shall."

"It wasn't real anyways. If you think anybody would allow you to do so you really are insane."

"What does she have to do with me?"

"She hates you."

"I don't hate her. I don't even know her!"

"She despises your naivete."

"Why?"

"You are like a child; she is no longer able to be one."

"Why is that?"

"Cows...."

"What?"

"Cows...."

"I need some water."

"Drink all you want. There is a toilet."

"What about bloody cows?"

"Cows...."

"Fucking fuck...."

"Cows...."

"I wish I was a bat."

"She will hate that the most."

"Why?"

"You will no longer be susceptible."

"To what?"

"You think so highly of her why don't you find out!"

"I don't even know her!"

"She doesn't care. She doesn't care about anyone or anything.....at all."

"Never ever?"

"Cows...."

"Guard!"

"Cows...."

"Guard!!!"

"Cows...."

"Guard!!!!"

"What is it lad!"

"Did my husband come?"

"Is he across the divide?"

"What?"

"They split the territory. Anybody on the other side is not allowed to come over."

"What side is this?"

"I call it The Pink."

"Where was I when arrested?"

"That's what they were trying to tell you but you just....."

"....."

"Those people you were with are inside The Blue."

"When am I permitted to leave?"

"I don't know. I'll let you know."

"What is the crime?"

"We're not sure yet. You must be something else!"

"Why do you say that?"

"Well I saw you accidentally walk into that officer....."

"I didn't mean to...."

"I know......he's got a dislocated shoulder and a broken arm."

"Shit...."

"Yeah...."

"I don't know what to say."

"If you go to court and say you're sorry....."

"That will never due."

"Guess it won't."

"Should I pay for his doctor?"

"Ours are free. That won't do any good either."

"I wish him well."

"I'll tell him that. He's my brother!"

"Cows...."

"Officer I am hearing things."

"We all do. You get used to it."

"Did you really say that?"

"Aw shut up Harold! I'm sick of you telling me to kill my damn wife!"

"Cows...."

"Tell me more about her."

"She could be one."

"One what?"

"Cows...."

"What am I?"

"Chipmunk...."

"Fuck...."

"Cordelia...."

"?"

"She knows...."

"She knows what?"

"She knows your suffering."

"She is my twin."

"She will be your child."

"I just got out of jail."

"Stay out."

"Damn it...."

"That bitch wants you here."

"Why?"

"She doesn't have a life."

"Everyone has a life."

"She is a cow."

"Why does she want me here?"

"To suffer like herself."

"That is ridiculous."

"She is ridiculous; everyone laughs at her."

"That will make her even more focused upon destruction."

"Cows...."

"Oh wait before I go Vicki I forget to tell you something!"

"Tex...."

"Those peoples after you got another thing coming. I'm a ranger! I told them about you and yours. I gave them pictures and told them what was going to happen....robots....real ones!"

"I don't know if that will help our situation."

"Sure as hell won't hurt."

"How do I get you to come back?"

"How do I get you to come back?"

"You will be with me.....?"

"Always! Sure will."

Cordelia - Victoria's eternal counterpart, none shall come between their bond, Cordelia is the baby blue courtship of virgin majesty, she is a named legendary vampyr of charismatic charm, she is a mysterious figure however known by all, her fashion is periwinkle

Victoria - Cordelia's eternal counterpart, none shall come between their bond, Victoria is the blush pink courtship of virgin majesty, she is a named legendary vampyr of sweet seduction, she is a mysterious figure however known by all, her fashion is cherry blossom

"I thought we would never get out of there!"

"....."

"What is the matter?"

"I didn't hear them."

"I didn't have any visitors."

"....."

"Rather boring and uneventful except for the information we collected."

"Should of written it down."

"I will remember."

"Was that a dream Amber?"

"I don't know anymore."

"Where are you going?"

"To search for visitors."

"I forgot where I lived."

"Come with me."

"Alright I will."

My girlfriend is inside her loft apartment townhouse overlooking an art deco fountain with rainbow spectrum solar powered liquid lights; I spent the evening to dawn with Ambrosia, I am covered with strange cloths, and blotches of borrowers.

"Oh....are you okay?"

"They said a lot of mean stuff."

I am at my girlfriend's loft apartment townhouse, I wash my hands from drawing a picture, I miss her so much but the girl on paper is not whom I desire, I need the real one more than fanged dental, I need her more than food or water, I need her as my self. She spent the evening to dawn with Natassja, thongs and red lipstick messed her shirt.

"They were absolutely unjustified speech."

My stare is a dream of Catrixenya, her kisses, her touch; every neighbor comes to see me.

"He doesn't know we're here."

"He'll figure it out eventually."

"What's he saying?"

"He is telling his dream girl how much he misses her and how he wants to be married forever and ever....."

"Where is she?"

"Doing the same thing at his friend's......is that Amber's girlfriend?"

"Shit I don't have a fucking clue anymore."

"His eyes are gone."

"He keeps talking...."

"What's he saying now?"

"He wants to have lots of babies...."

"He's got us."

"Yeah!"

"Hey!"

"He said we are his friends."

"Yeah we are...always...no matter what."

"He said he needs her more than anything...."

"I don't think he can live without her."

"He's gone....he's just gone...."

"I hope he comes back."

"He doesn't know where he's at.....!"

".....he'll figure it out....."

"He's crazy about her.....what's all that money for?"

"He said it's to pay for our bills and hers too."

"Alright this is way out of hand."

"Shit."

"Where did he get it from?"

"Something about machines."

"What are they called?"

"He doesn't say.....he's talking about all the stuff he's going to buy us."

"Should we let him?"

"Yeah...."

"He says Catrixenya will understand."

"I don't think he knows we're here at all."

"Should we poke him?"

"I want to give him a hug."

Every neighbor inside the condominium complex cuddles me for a dream; I fantasize about Catri and a thousand empty milk jugs for a moon that never ends. I wonder if I do that now; I wonder where I am.