Squishy

Katarzyna wears my straight leg jeans with a baggy exhaustive long sleeve v-neck intended slim fit; she enters the den study sitting on the edge of a comma table. Julian is a thick lad seating two chairs, his shocking embarrassment reels a maple wood flooring grind to screech, when he settles into one blushing for chivalry amiss is a hard ground; nevertheless he tries again snapping the delicate deco backed stool to pieces. I watch him struggle from alongside a cherry bookcase, Zyna dismays inside my left arm; she tells my ear thus frightens her which I protest instinctively carrying our childhood away. His gentle eyes peer a distance of reddened misunderstanding; I return disappointed for ourselves.

"I didn't know she was coming."

"Neither did I."

"I don't know how to act around her."

"Why?"

"She's not like Catri."

"How?"

"She's different."

He hides from me; number thirteen undermines his guardian.

I am curiousness for the figure approaching from a mortal village detaching coffee beans for boys: I cannot lift him, this child is a solid mass of tender muscle.

Julian is despised by Rosa and Daisy; they believe he came to me for materialistic wealth. Upon examination Braid assesses his "mortality" susceptible to severity such as the appearance of aging; she deems him an illusion practitioner however the bloodline is notably eclectic, his birthed is birthed by a woman known as Menstrual, the curse of rape.

Zyna flinches when near him; he stares an abolishing hypnosis of sadness.

"He's going to fuck with me."

"He searches fair earth."

"I'm deathly serious; I shall speak with Tri."

"What am I good for?"

"Protection, you are my shield of sensuality."

"Elaborate..."

"Must you always fold your arms for me?"

"I'm a shield."

"You are the only one; I do not desire relations otherwise especially with a mortal child."

"If he was not mortal?"

"He is a child and I am not attracted."

"Is it..."

"Chocolate Boy asks me what?"

"You are very..."

"Do you desire a child with me?"

"Zen will determine."

"Not for us."

"And why not?"

"You know why."

Catri clothes a pajama shirt donated from Ambush, Ambrosia's eldest boy, the color is camouflage tech boxes of bluish grey; the buttons lose my navigational sense.

"Why is that?"

"Our child is a debate between us."

"I do not wish for you to argue at all."

"Zen.....that child.....what is his name? The roundly boy....."

"Jule.....he freaks you out?"

"Yes..."

"Chocolate Boy did you defend her? I'm looking at you my dear husband."

"What are you wearing underneath...."

Kat yearns a cup of tea excusing herself silently with a gentle door closing.

"You're shorts."

"I need those back."

"Now?"

"Uh huh...."

"Leo!!"

My shorts are topping a head of double spun erect tails of spirals as I address my astrological phenomena; philanthropy catches tear drops from a woman depressing a box of country style chocolates.

For Katarzyna - Secret Admires You

"Dearest me."

"Sai shall..."

"Zyna..."

"Lover Man? Where in hell did you...."

"Snow hastily chose."

Giggling commences from a cupboard bin, Kat is laying on a sofa reciting legendary lyrics of suicidal poets without caring societies to grave stones. My sorrow winces betrayal for a belly regretting moments of splurging tendencies, how often I relied upon metabolism to rid me of insecurity; the sound is a sad jungle cat sighing miserable nervous cage pacing.

Julian's favorite game is hide and seek; he plays such while I am woefully serious, his smile emerges from my worst case scenario, I soon forget what worried me. He is yet to understand my relationship with Katarzyna however there is a girl at Del's clinic matching his persona, she is a tad bit elder, her name is Natalie.

Natalie - everybody's physician, indiscriminate compassionate surgeon particularly veterinary, mourns neither the living or dead

"Natalie..."

"I am without a clue why you are here; I suppose you come to collect me for one of your brothers to marry."

"Uh..."

"Julian?"

"Well..."

"He scares the hell out of Katarzyna."

"How..."

"If she deems it proper."

"Oh..."

"You better go; Del is operating on a politician."

"Yuck."

"He's removing the left valve."

"What..."

"There is another man waiting. He will remove his right."

"Why..."

"He wants you and Ruby to see."

"Uh..."

"You both sustain the mortal heart."

"Hhmmm..."

"He will replace theirs with a sow Rosa found."

"Oh..."

"I took it out; she ate a human baby."

"Dearest me."

Leo, I left; I am returning back to the combination. I desired taking Zen with me but you would be deeply saddened without her presence. I fear without her you will slip into a sadness never to return; I fear the same for her, you are one, how can you live without? Any person who interferes shall be damned loneliness evermore even if they bid such of you; Aqua and her Lion belong in each other's arms. Unfortunately you and I are youthful bafflement; I am certain we will reach maturity even if confusion masks our intent. I forget which is which, for you and you combined I think of us always; ours is ours.

"Sister..."

"Brother Jewel...what bothers you this moon?"

"His name makes me laugh."

"Why?"

"Gremlin!"

"Is he?"

"He will come for that woman."

"Who?"

"Don't worry. Where is Catri?"

"You are a whiff of cocoa butter."

"My skin dries from cool temperature."

"I turned around and she wasn't there."

"You are crying and I know why."

"You do?"

"You are lost without her. You don't know where you are and what will become of you. You do not know what to do. You are missing half of your self. You cannot continue like this."

"Is that how you feel about Katarzyna?"

"Not at all. She knows what she did. Will she bring Natalie?"

"What did she do?"

"I cannot explain. Catri waits bearing rain."

"Whatever for?"

"He thought there was a man watching through the window."

"Whom?"

"He was watching you."

"Did you see him?"

"He can no longer watch anyone."

"What is that in your hand?"

"Black marbles..."

"They are..."

"Squishy? Oh well!"

The presence of my sister is quad wings such as bat's hollowed domination; I understand she is my shelter and overprotection. I do not mind it at all! Catri is my brother through marriage; I forget which is which, one is chocolate, the other is vanilla. If anyone separates them I am lost in between the seams of a selfsame existence. I know not intimacy or amorous reality without them; I am their childlike listener. I further examined myself upon Braid's induction of death and damnation, my health is emotional due to stress. Mortality as my brother or sister says, whomever of the two matters little for words but greatly to worlds which come simultaneously undone, determined by resolution. I refuse to leave without seeing them forever together; thus achieved I shall be eternal!