"I forgot what we were debating."
"It doesn't matter..."
Odin is flipping about with a handsome Beau; he suits me well but his mind evades my glare.
"I wonder what it is like to be him."
"You wonder what it is like to be a dog?"
"Never mind..."
"Oh I see.....you wonder what it is like to be a wolf."
"Something like that..."
"You both look alike."
Two sets of gorgeous blue eyes look to me for adoration; I adore them both and their pink noses. I carry one away into another room to play.
"What about me?"
"You're not a wolf!"
"What if I was?"
"I would play with you every chance I am permitted."
"Do you really mean that?"
"Yes..."
My muse is a fluffy calico feline laying on his lap; as I enter her perception, she leaves him for a sitting position greeting me with a soft paw touch.
"I missed you Lilith..."
"What about me?"
"I always miss you."
"I am always looking for you."
"I want you to find me."
"What about everyone else?"
"We will need to find them."
"When will this happen?"
"In our dreams..."
"We will share our dreams?"
"We will share our lives..."
"Together?"
"What if we were far apart?"
"I will always be close by."
"Why is that?"
"I only know where I am when I am close to you."
"I do not know where I am when I am close to you."
"Where are we now?"
"Somewhere you know..."
"Is that enough....?"
"You are enough if that is what you are asking.....am I?"
"Yes..."
"Then why are you somewhere else?"
"I am looking for my wife."
"I wonder what she is like..."
"She looks like you."
"Then you mustn't be confused..."
"I don't mind the confusion."
"Neither do I."
I do...
Rolf is optimistically chatting with Brad and Cindy; both turn to focus my direction, theirs is secretive intention yet I know what they desire. Coming back is a difficult journey for living wanderers let alone the dead. I am unsure what he is speaking. He is unbelievably attractive, nevertheless somebody is watching; I desire their eyes to catch me inside of his head.
"What do you think?"
I am thinking how much I will ache for you when we are separated by whatever or whomever wishes to keep us apart.
"I think I need a glass of water."
"I need some fruit."
Brad is learning to understand our misunderstanding while we wonder what he will do while we look for each other; will he search for Cindy or will they forget about one another? They must wonder the same for us; they do not make their concerns known.
"We do not eat or drink here."
"Where are we? Rolf do you know?"
"I am dreaming about you."
"I am dreaming about you too."
Cindy is attempting to express her emotions; body language is confusing functionality for words.
"It's not what you think..."
"What do you think we think?"
"You don't know what's real."
"Do you...?"
"Dreams are real."
"How can you be so sure?"
"You will see what I mean in your dreams."
Mighty is a sleeping stone on a mat trio striped red, yellow, and green surrounded by mountains of smoke; I wonder why he smokes so much. Sitting on the lounge sofa I watch him carefully, he is breathing, wisps of cirrus float from his nostrils while steam clears his mouth. Crinkling sounds, eerily reminiscent of somebody else's mind, I pour nutty nuts into a glass to crunch with a spoon. Mouse is shaking violently frightening me deeply; the cup misses a few cereal pieces as I jump to his side. Hypnosis spelled him into a sorrowful trench I cannot reach.
"I didn't mean to do it....I know she loves him....he should know....why doesn't he know....I hope he figures it out....I never meant to hurt them....they belong with each other....all their children...."
"Who?"
"He's got to know by now....if he doesn't....I don't know what it's going to take for me to get him to notice....I will do it...."
"Do what?"
"He's got to find the hints....I left them where he will look....all those things that came out of him....he doesn't know...."
"What things?"
"They're not him though....just leftovers....they want to confuse him....it's going to confuse him....his girl too....their kids....all of them...."
"Who are they?"
"Why did I do that to the mouse? He was just sitting there. I didn't know they could multiply until I tried; I don't even know why I did it. I didn't even like science."
Zoomy is cross legged in darkness listening; I did not see until he spoke. I always know when he is in the house; I wonder what is wrong with me. I love him too much. Somebody will steal him; my heart will be left over to think about wherever he might be while I cry.
"He did something to us."
"How do you know?"
"Thad left a note..."
The man you stay with is not who you think he is. We know him from work. The reason you are confused has to do with him.
"It has to do with them too."
"Yeah since they worked together."
"Did you ask him about this?"
"No..."
"How do you know if they did or not?"
"I saw them talking."
"What did they say?"
"He just kept shaking his head but whatever they were saying made sense to him."
"He didn't punch them....?"
"The neighbors pulled him away when he was yelling..."
"What was he yelling about?"
"He said they didn't understand and now everything is fucked up. They can't go back and he doesn't want anything to do with them. He told them he wished they never existed and he would do anything to stop them. Chester told him that was impossible; they need to talk to us and make some sort of agreement."
"They should always be together....that's why they did it....I understand why they did....I'm scared for them....I'm so scared...."
"What do we do now?"
"Nothing..."
"Are you pissed?"
"Are you....?"
"Not yet..."
"Me too..."
"Where is Who?"
"He is trying to find out what is going to happen to us."
"All of us? Who too?"
"Yeah...."
"How is he doing that?"
"You Know..."
"Oh..."
"They're not any different from us.....we are the ones that are different from them.....I used to not believe in all that stuff but it makes sense when you see what they are made of.....complex but simple.....really is.....that's why I had to make sure they will survive.....they should be able to make it through.....I know they will.....they will figure it out.....I found the rainbow tubes.....I added something to it.....I know that will make sure the real ones surface....."
"The real ones?"
"You Know said there are a bunch of people who look like us."
"What the fuck?"
"Yeah...."
"They don't think they are us do they?"
"You Know says we got away; he said Chester and Thad had something to do with it."
"They helped us get away..."
"That's what he said."
"Rosie and Daisy.....always talking about them.....I don't even think they knew what was going on....."
"What else did Who say?"
"He said they are going to do that to everyone we know."
"Do what?"
"I'm not sure; whatever happened to us."
"You mean they are going to be confused with a bunch of people walking around looking like them too?"
"Yeah that's what he meant."
"Those people that look like us..."
"Know said they are going to confuse us with them."
"That must be what Mouse is going on about...."
"It's all about balance.....the chemistry.....those things won't be able to stand a chance against them....there will be no denying who they are.....it will be evident.....unless the similarities take over them.....unless they absorb from them.....depends on what they put in those tubes.....if they mixed their exact properties there will be no imitation.....those things should just dissipate.....like.....like....."
"A dream.....?"
"Is this really happening?"
"We will find out."
"Is this for real?"
"Who said it's reasonable....."
"This is fucking us up even more."
"If they can survive there will be nothing that can interfere with their relationships.....nothing at all.....they will make it.....I know they will.....they will to see each other again....."
"Know said Thad and Chess are going to inject us with some kind of fluid to make us believe whatever they want."
"Does he think we'll believe it?"
"He said we won't be able to fight and we need to accept it."
"We need to find out more. This is really happening?"
"I'm not sure yet."
"Do the neighbors know?"
"You know how they are always wondering why we keep forgetting shit and stuff like that....."
"Yeah....."
"They wanted to know and Who told us he was going to find out why we feel like this. He wasn't going to let us down."
"We told him we were going to find out why everything is this way."
"Poor Rosa.....Poor Daisy.....they just kept saying that.....what was so poor about them.....they did something to them.....what do they want.....I will never know.....I hope I see them again.....I hope I see all of them again.....I cannot apologize.....I need to be a resolution.....how do I do that.....there must be something I can do....."
"You better do it Mighty."
"We don't have much time."
"Our time is running out."
"They put us on a clock with batteries."
"Do you understand what we are talking about?"
"Everything is made to look normal.....they will be so noticeable.....everything will change around them.....they will be the same.....nothing can take that away from them.....not even science....."
"Are you sure about that Mouse?"
"That's why they had to hide.....that's why they did all of that stuff.....there is more to it.....it's not important to me.....it's important to them.....they need to know why they did it.....makes sense now.....why didn't it then.....I will never understand myself....."
"I guess we won't either."
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