Subliminal Subtraction

"....the underground people scan his shit!"

"What do you mean they scan my shit?"

"......your shit Sunny! For real not just saying that shit!"

"What do they find?"

"....ear bones.....membranes.....connective valves.....chunks of tested tissue from scientists...it makes them cry a lot and you can't hear like people do anymore it's like a collection of stuff you bounce off.....some folks be checking some graph of your anatomy to conclude results and they see it's all changing really quickly like you got ridges in your ear canals now and you don't have many veins connected from your eyes to your brain.......you be trying so hard to grasp sight and sound but you rely upon other's perception..........and it works for a little while..........it works...always showing up after the commotion not knowing what's going on but you a sad fella and you keep breaking stuff that be hitting you..........it just fall off then that motherfucker in that house try to cut off your damn finger inside the dry box with some damn razor blade and that shit was all numb and you wondered why it slammed on you so hard but it just bent the blade and you got a nasty nick......on your skin like some weird blood clot."

"....I hope I somehow recall what you say Moo Moo cause I don't really know what's going on..."

"You don't there either. I can't believe that shit didn't cut off your finger. He meant it for your neighbor......you're not too happy about that either cause you be kind of sore about your pointer....you be afraid of some fish and seaweed bottle.....I don't understand this man I see in front of the computer."

"You're not the only one."

"Well he a little shit like a god damn evil wicked bat!"

"Really?"

"Yes....he be fucking with everything fucking everybody up and moving shit just to show people it can be done and he waging a silent war with androids that nobody really say much but they call him Purple Pyro and Amethyst The Seer. What that shit you use to hook up to your brain to communicate with them using sonar?"

"It's some kind of cerebral cortex frequency radar."

"...well you don't need that there and you be getting so angry at them for involving innocent people you just about ready to go at them all but Verona he there.....he there somewhere.....everybody think he look good with you and he a really real handsome fellow but you and him just don't hit it off like that. He looking for you everywhere.....he got some funny kind of work thing going on.....but he close by."

"Verona? How did he?"

"....anyways you did something the previous night in Zyna's box cause he brought you to a party and you bit some rich guy's son and you got rid of everybody else cause they killed some little kids they buried in the backyard. You just let it all come out your mouth to freak them out and you was wild looking.........anyways Zyna had to put you back into your box but you two can't be trading too much cause both you uninhibited in each other's realm....you just mad fucking fangs when you switch even your appearance changes.....but you can't use your teeth in the box you in and neither can he......so you got to merge it and you only want it while you ain't in each other's but switching to feed helps you both out."

"Damn it."

"So you just be showing up after a bunch of crazy shit go down.....you ain't wanting to get into it with the people in the house cause they be trying when you sleep walking but they just about gave up cause they so fucking stupid. Then this girl be coming to see you sneaking out when you all zoning......she be talking to you and she like play him at poker and win a bunch of crazy shit.....she always be trying to tell ya'll she different but even donkey piss think it weird and you just stare at her for a while like she don't really know what different means. He ask her if she been drinking and she say no and you ask her if she experiences dimensional trauma and she said no and nobody believe her when she say she is different; it's cause some people try to make her believe something that ain't real. He be asking her how much her doctor cost her and she said nothing and he like so surprised because he say the more bull shit they tell you the more they cost so for each word is a like a dollar and you start laughing so hard you like fall on the floor and she help you get up but he don't think that funny at all......then she start laughing cause he look so serious it ain't funny and you just be dying.....then she ask you all this stuff..."

"Like what?"

".....how come you so different than us.....how come your eyes reflect like a flashlight.....how come your teeth hang over your lip when you smile.....how come you look like you like a real youthful teenager person.....how come you so fucking fast.........how come them smart ass people who read a lot and act like hell be running everything and you hide from their shit.....how come you don't talk about what going on in that house.....how come your back is so long.....how come black folks always be looking at you like they going to run off with your ass...............then she ask you a good one."

"What?"

"........she ask you if you believe anything out there to help them...but you don't really answer anything you just be smiling and saying that you adapting to what you can to survive."

".....that's not an answer."

"You tell her there ain't an answer to questions just more questions without answers. That she got to accept what she notices in the corner of her eye as how it is....but she ask you if you ever age..........cause she say that people who got your number be looking a lot more....different and that you just like frozen."

"I am frozen...."

"That's when you tell her everything and she just amazed by the situation. You tell her that earth was once a vast whirlpool of destruction and you resided in China with your family and loved ones....you and your best friends decided it would be best to freeze yourselves for resolution because you read some scripture written by unknown descendants of another earth and they told you that you would return as projections and images of what cannot be touched therefore you shall return always to save a planet you desire eternity and health for all people and living beings which desire the same goal...."

"Yes..."

"She don't know what to say. She really angry at people and frustrated.....she be getting stoned a lot..........and you be using that man in the house as a demonstration cause she be asking you if she not mentally sound and you be like showing her what he do and she be like damn cause you trying to prove a point that what people see ain't how it is and she tell you that your act don't work worth shit and you be like whatever I got to do it because of the robots it fool them and that all that counts and they got eyes and ears in machines you didn't know existed and she be like oh fuck cause she say a lot of shit.....then she ask you if she dreaming and you say it don't matter if neither of you remember because it's almost over and she ask you what almost over and you say you ain't sure but you feel it closing a chapter."

"....who is she?"

"Don't know but Dominique be so pissed about some girl who was working at a store she owned cause she told that bitch that was the person who begged her to stay but she never got paid cause she got rid of her ass.....anyways that lady didn't do anything that she asked her but Dom couldn't leave the office cause she was so sad about you........anyways you just walk away from that shit and you be owed something but ain't worried so much but that shit really fuck that lady bad she be sucking up to you but then trying to hurt you and you like tell yourself the whole time you do it for a reason and you do it for Dom and you do it for the people who go there and they all know it but they happy you fucked it......you fucked it so good and it fucked some lady who be eating fish pockets a lot too and she was not expecting that cause she always really damn cunning..........anyways don't be worrying about that. Damn people be knowing about the island you getting your ass fucked with......but you just thinking about lies a lot and what they tell you......ain't true. Boat Master Mcfucker be after you too.....he trying to make an example of you or some shit but you be like whatever......he can't do nothing cause he just out of money and everything.....not just that he just out of every damn thing. He be mad at you still from when you steal his whip.....nobody really believe in things like that there it just all bull shit news...."

".....yeah well news is bull shit."

"That boy in there going to go blind soon.....he a nightwalker and be noticing some fucked up shit......he tired of fighting white people too. He so tired of running from whips and chains and so is Louis it just about done with it for real. It kind of don't bother him anymore or Louis.....he just tired of it. So anyways you be like doing shit and not noticing nothing and being real hilarious for a lot of people cause you just like what the fuck ever.....and Die Die be doing that and Kevinya and Verona and all ya'll in there be like what the fuck ever and don't know shit is so fucked up."

"I don't know if it will never bother me."

".....so like this young man be telling people about you......and them droids be freaking out naming you Pyro......all ya'll they be waiting for another battle but you just about had it with that too but they be wanting to kill people a whole lot of them........but ya'll just like so damn used to it you got some kind of involuntary response just to deal with it. They be freaking out everyone but you guys..."

"....they always freak out everybody."

"No this like pandemonium."

"....hhhmm...."

"And you be thinking about Zen and you be thinking about being with Zen and you be thinking about a handsome guy with fluffy blonde hair and blue eyes..."

"Who is he?"

"...."

"Is he cute?"

"...."

"Where is he?"

"...."

"...."

"So anyways.....some orange freak some people out.....the Frog Lady be like dream sequencing horrendously....she be sending you messages through the wires in between....past Marsha and things......she also be hiding some of her stuff with you. You be like wondering where that shit come from and what you supposed to do with it. She just keep it there but some of it from Marsha really only one thing there that you may of gotten but still a debatable dream and the name be reminding the man of you when you walked in so he thought that was really damn interesting.......something about a little guy who kicks ass. He remind you of cilantro so you call him Cilantro. He be really sad and sitting in a room with bubbling water a lot thinking about jail! He think nothing going to go right and he think you remind him of the marijuana plant but he don't say nothing. He laugh about that and everybody be thinking that.....they be like why don't she know what day it is or what time it is or why don't she know even where she really at she just adapt and how come she just like whatever and don't give a shit about fucked up shit. And it's all that marijuana you and Zen used to smoke.....anyways you just about forget about that stuff but people be wondering and you be reminding them of weed and people be stoned coming to see you and see what you like but you know they stoned and you don't give a god damn fucking rat ass and a donkey piss or a football!"

"Damn right."

"No you even worse than you are now."

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".....and anyways..........furthermore.....he got a lot of swords."

"Why?"

"That there a good question without an answer. That the only question that girl did not ask you. And you asked her why she don't ask you that and she said it made sense to her and that she trusted you with all that shit and that it don't bother her as long as it there with you and even that man and that bitch know about that shit well sort of and they don't really mind it cause you not a crazy motherfucker like the ones they meet. Louis try to age your face to make sure but it just feel weird like gravity trying to pull at you or tease you and you just keep walking and you bugging out cause of hair but some man send you a machine all these fake women be mad about but he don't care cause they went out of business.......he think it really funny and that you must be something else for them to act like that and then you be having lingerie catalogs and that man in the house be asking some people if you notice there are women in it wearing lingerie and that you just look at the stuff in it just to see it and that you don't even know they half naked. That sort of make some people think about how you be not caring if you half naked and that you really really really do not like fucking with girls and you maybe phobic."

"Phobic!"

"It way worse than you are now. Way worse......way worse.....so much more worse. But you think nobody notice how freaked out you are but you like watch what the underground people do and it be faking out lots of people and you think it hilarious. They be faking gay shit. Or whatever that shit called but you don't really care about what people look like you just don't care for mix matching the same body.....like you figure it better to go fuck yourself then to be with somebody who got the same stuff. That make a whole hell of a lot of sense. But you ain't got to be so freaked out about it. So you like bugging out about it. It don't matter though...."

"I didn't mean to punch her like that..."

"Oh yes you did and she remember but she think you dead. She like weird looking and nasty.....and she know exactly what you look like apart from the latex inserts....she just some dumb ass droid but she confirm that you so that be good."

"What was her name?"

"So you be like denying the orange upon the table thinking about plantain bananas and Chanel.....lipstick in some man's pocket and he be like what the fuck and you be like dying for a pair of heels....you be like dying for..."

"No heels..."

"Except for the people you step on....hehe."

"How does she get heels?"

"Louis don't let her get none."

"Why not?"

"Cause he ain't ready for that yet and you ain't an occasional heel walker either and you need to learn the right moment and that damn there Peanut Butter was trying to diss you saying you don't know nothing about being a lady but he a man! I hate people you know? He look like a man wearing make up and that ugly lady who try to fuck you be some lady who asked you why she picked her skin and you didn't answer so she tried to fuck you over and Dom Dom be freaking out and really pissed at her punching walls and breaking shit and going nuts."

"But that's over right?"

"Yeah but you still ain't got your heels and you can't walk around in your panties so you like damn pissed off and buggered....but you ain't got the body you want to do it anymore so you really not feeling it either cause all that be like limping off your metal bones."

"Great."

"And you don't do that for any man you just do that cause you just a scantily clad lady."

"Oh..."

"You do wear a lot of make up sometimes."

"Does she?"

"She don't wear any....she tired of doing that besides she understand it is for the artistry of photography and modern impressionism as well classical depth."

"Wow..."

"Yeah she cool with me like that."

"How did she figure that out?"

"Louis....besides that he don't need her doing that while he figuring out what he want her to do exactly..."

"Oh..."

"Yeah he got plans."

"Oh."

"So you be getting high from people who be eating right.....and jogging.....and they be concerned about your tuna eating making you beef but you ain't cattle."

"Oh."

".....you a lot different there for some reason like more into what you was into but distant from a history......you be like so angry at your body. That girl who come to visit you ask you what bother you and you tell her your body is making you angry and she say what about it and you say there is too much of it and you feel heavy. She be like god damn but you like what ever and she try to show you what being heavy look like but you say it a feeling and she start to understand.....she really pissed off at some people who you sonar bounce for retrieval...."

"So what happens to her?"

"There a bunch of people there that don't want to be there when the shit go down."

"What shit?"

"The sun look different.....less spectrum.....your ass be bonier....for some reason....some guy be thinking about the way you look........he didn't think anybody else looked like that and you didn't either and things be changing....like you feeling like it's what you know. Except I think he kind of like you more than you know but you like what ever and you just do what you do....he was with some boy who pretend to be a girl and she afraid of you.........so you couldn't see really anybody except for him cause you know exactly what he look like everybody else look pink and blue and smiles or frowns or worried to you. You can't see shit. They kind of know that but they just like whatever and they notice you don't really give a damn what people say if they assholes...."

"Are you sure about that?"

"You don't give a shit what they say if they assholes cause they assholes so they suck. Except if they hurt somebody you remember that and keep a mental tab."

".....does she eat fried food?"

"No."

"..........does she eat octopus?"

"Them things ain't real where she at. Or the squid.....she don't eat that....she just eat tuna and some fish she know is the real stuff."

"I don't blame her."

"....she be thinking about some big project that in a small center. The Frog Lady think some mummy she got is so interesting and she know you made it but she wonder how and she know it so ecological and got a lot of clean energy.......but it so bright......she try it.....she was like god damn and cursed god damn. There was some other stuff too she try and she thought it was really like Jamaica she been there some time ago and she thought it remind her of there.....she think it kind of like a library....but not really a garden type of place to read.....just like a scientific laboratory for better things but she ain't afraid of what coming. She tell this other lady that she ain't worried about cause she used to shit happening and that you already kind of like programmed for it and that she want to see it. That lady tell her she don't know and she don't really think she want to be here. The man say the same thing.....you paranoid about everything.....Frog Lady ain't so worried about it anymore. You really freaking out by then.....you like god damn freaking out paranoid but nobody really....they just....it ain't shit really but it is for you god damn! God damn!"

"What is it?"

"Some top secret shit Sunny."

"Oh..."

"So Zen be really missing you and missing your hair and your lips and be thinking about your kisses and your lovings and thinking about some time she was really happy you was taking your clothes off on her lap...."

"Clyde!"

"Yes dear one."

"Do you know what this man did to me?"

"Didn't we already discuss this before?"

"....this isn't like me."

"......so you were on his lap dancing and he was really...."

"His eyes were the biggest bluest planets I ever saw."

"....were they....happy?"

"What was I doing?"

"Something we need to televise and make a big shit about! I told you girl! We got to make everything decent shitty so people leave us alone when we get to do what we want!"

"Why did he look like that?"

"He liked it!"

"Why was I doing that Clyde?"

".....you're his wife. Victoria you are married to him."

"Really?"

"Yes..."

"He's so handsome."

"Okay."

"He really is..."

"Okay."

"I feel so close to him."

"....now I am starting to see what he talking about."

"Who?"

"The guy with the suitcase."

"Anyways could you get the handsome guy's number for me?"

"Number?"

"His address!"

"You live with him!"

"...does he have any kids?"

"There must be twenty of those by now."

"......with who?"

"Some damn girl who be like fucking with my head right now!"

"Does she do that better than me?"

"....Victoria Zen is your husband, you live with him, and you have kids. A bunch."

".....the handsome guy we just talked about?"

"No."

"....oh well I am just now understanding that I am unaware of how handsome men conjoin to be the one I married."

"Yes.....yeah he is the handsome guy you sat on his lap and did that thing then he sort of is the handsome guy who we just talked about but I say no because I don't like him right now."

"Why?"

"He keeps asking me about some girl that fucks with my head!"

"Oh..."

"She is made out of chocolate and wears red stockings with garter belts."

"Oh."

".....she's standing in front of me adjusting her garter belt and red stockings."

"Fucking hell Clyde if you had to wear these you would be like what the fuck."

"You don't have to wear them."

"I do have to wear these kind for this otherwise I would wear the ones I feel comfortable."

"What is it made out of?"

"Some fucking recycled shit that Dom thought of....like fucking pvc pipe."

"....oh."

"Anyways so about that guy."

"Yeah?"

".....I want to marry him."

"Okay just go away please."

"So you be like thinking about him and be like in another world when all this shit happens and it don't even mean anything....to you....but you just relax.......sort of until that happens then you like bugging out....then this lady be really trying to figure out something but you just like make her think about important shit to her instead so she like wondering about how you got her to do that but she got the moment to think about it. A lot of people doing that. Except for him cause he just tired of everything so he rather just deal with something in a book he read that he can't figure out.....but I think he will get it if he lets it go. You so bored it ain't funny. You be wanting something fucked up to come but it take too long........too long and Zyna be missing you and you be missing him and smiling about him and adoring him and thinking about his hair and how it looks when you flip it. He be worried about you and wanting to protect you and be the guy....you be wanting to take care of him and be the gal....you guys are weird and you gal is weird and whatever though. You two is like made for each other but not to get with one another but you two really is a couple like a Queen and King. He tall too. You be thinking about children and how come you ain't had any.....he is an alien Sunny."

"I told you."

"....is that why he so good looking?"

"No he just is good looking."

"Everybody god damn look at him. He like the most handsome motherfucker on the planet."

".....yeah he is very handsome."

"How he do that?"

"He just gets it from Snow."

"Who his daddy anyways?"

"Nicodemus."

"Oh....well he don't really look like him."

".......no he looks like Snow."

".......so how come you don't like him like that?"

"....I like that blonde guy with blue eyes that I see out the window."

"He's walking a big cat."

"........who is he?"

"I can't stand you right now."