Chocolate Costume

Fanatical disgrace is communal abolishment yet I question the poise of grouping awareness.

"Vampyr....I ask of you."

"What may you ask?"

"....there is a man and a woman who bother us so much. The authorities favor them as money and tools of action. They torment our hearts and torment our spirit. I despise them more than hatred. This feeling within is greater than survival.......I ask of you Vampyr what must I do to remain?"

"......you ask of me what I do when such happens is that correct?"

"Yes Vampyr. What is your name?"

"Blink."

"Shall I?"

".....you may call me Blink."

"So be it."

"Do you be such thou?"

"Nay."

"Suffer thine?"

"Yea."

".....thou knowest proceedings of my immortal?"

"Yea.....Vampyr you are our protector! You are the lion...you are the woman of the couple we deem as the crystal bearer and strong man. You are the tears of our blood."

".....I am not much assistance for this situation."

"I know. I know."

"You must understand justice and proceed."

"You say we must."

"You must."

"....none shall save us!"

"No god and no deity will ever know what you sorrow unless given to them as repentant sacrifice.....they shall lay upon an altar for your people."

".......they will come for you."

"They will die evermore."

"Only you can do such."

".....I cannot. I am not subject to this kind of torture."

"...........only you may deem it proper for their spiral....the downward spiral."

"They are in the center. You are the current."

"....you will see them."

".......will you be there?"

"Which sighting?"

"How many?"

"Too many."

"Very well.....I will return to this city in a few.....calendar months."

"...what of the other city......you shan't leave it."

".....is it like this one?"

"We will burn most of it."

"What will stand?"

"....the grocers and convenience markets.......the parks.....the water.....some of the houses."

"You hate it that much?"

"Tis confusing and ridiculous."

"I thought the same at first sight."

"You think so of the people I speak of?"

"Yes."

".......come again Vampyr. Do not ever leave Vampyr. I bid thee eternity...."

Blink - Victoria's intermittent tendency to calculate quartz intervals to stall the appearance of time, doing so such an act occurs which is remembered after which and witnessed by many people unfortunately for the character of which was determined by her jurisdiction none shall see the blink of an eye, thus is the grace of a vampyr known as Great Britain's purple heart

Welcome an exit; this is New York. Cordelia and I return with Nadia, Zen, little people resembling us, two felines, two canines, one assortment android. We pass by renovation adaptation articulating pyramid blocks, Brooklyn is a classical stance however cold red bricks appear as apparitions; sidewalks roll sheet metal joints into smooth cement marble plates. Average people speculate the future while extraordinary presumption creates mediocre personalities; our boredom juggles astrology.

".....well......those people sucked."

"......we can't run away from the box."

"...I rather not hug the fucking thing."

"I rather not kiss it either."

"...this is our getaway?"

"......let's make sure this comes and goes with us."

Crystallized amethyst and ruby earthen choices, our neighbors unite madness for the world we accustom is unraveling. Good bye is unacceptable; my embrace is a memory.

"......this is strange."

"Maybe so but it's the only way...."

"....is it cause we're black?"

"Don't joke around...."

"....you want his name to be Chapelle or some shit like that?"

"......yeah you can do it."

"Who you going to be?"

"Some guy that 's black inside a fake ass space ship damn thing with some eerie music I made to make people think of possibility and space..."

"So then I got to be a guy with pointy fucking ears that looks like a weirdo serious."

"I call him....Spot? Fuck I forgot."

"....you're the black guy?"

".....not just any black guy.....the coin black guy."

"Token?"

".....no not like the Hobbit."

"Who wrote that?"

"Shit I don't know Amethyst. Probably some stoned motherfucker."

"Bet it was that guy on the donkey."

"....what is with you and donkeys?"

".......I think they're cute."

".........you think spiders and snakes are cute."

"They're cuter than donkeys."

".......what about those damn cat fur things you got to live with?"

"....they're.....okay."

"....oh yeah?"

"........I'm going to feed them two pounds of marijuana."

"The Vampire Plant?"

"Why do they call it that?"

"Cause only you and your damn people can grow it plus it looks like fangs and blood."

"Oh yeah?"

"I dreamed about people talking in a circle saying it looked like that girl they saw at a museum that looked like a vampire's house then they figured out it was your house."

"Martin?"

"Yeah him..."

"He said he wouldn't let anybody touch him and he was going to use the light frequency program to create walls and fake floors. He moves his blocks and uses one to recognize me when I place my hand upon it. He said he dreamed I came to see some paintings and I touched him.....he said it was glowing purple and pink around it and he was worried cause it got smaller....he weighed me and watched me. He said some people noticed but you didn't notice cause you were not there and I just had to leave cause I was bleeding tears."

".....Martin is an asshole."

"......he told me it was his house and I am his guest."

"Martin is a big asshole."

".....he's my friend."

"....anyways those gitty kids understand that plant is not so easy as they think also they understand that the resemblance is uncanny. We all know it is the Vampire Plant cause it drains energy and tissues from any surrounding plants....like drinking blood.....they are dominant and somewhat god damn evil.....they kill a lot of animals......god damn Amethyst those things just like you and them....."

"What if you were one?"

"Well they like us too."

"Yeah they like Auntie a lot. She's a B.P.L.O. but they grow for her....she hugs them a lot."

"......that is unusual."

"Well.....she gives them blood as fertilizer."

"Oh that makes sense."

"..........."

"So I guess you get it for them."

"Uh huh."

"I had a dream you was sitting wearing a white long sleeve t-shirt and your hair looked just like a lion! That scared some jackass stinking up your location. You were like thinking about bloody migraines, bony asses, some jail city, smoking cigarettes is damn unhealthy - the tobacco especially, walking through neighborhoods that got a lot of hurt people, police officers calling you a nigger, the bathroom and how it is unappealing, lagoon showers, chosen lovers, me as your brother, monkeys, Leo The Lion, tigers, bears, red heels.....on the bottom, singing voices, tea cups, oranges, bananas, telephones, tuna cans, and.....shit you carried a bunch of tuna on feet for a couple of miles......it was like so much weight you thought you would fall cause ounces and shit you guys confused for metrics....it doesn't make sense. Except for dried marijuana....and herbs.....and some medicines. You kissed that weird cat.....like a brush and a smack. He was so sad about something you could sort of understand. He knew he was going away or something and so did the other one......that's when you picked him up and made him sit on your bed while you talked to him."

"What did I say?"

"You told him it would be okay but all he could think about is how bad those people were in the house and you picked him up cause that guy was going to make him snort laundry detergent......so he just acts like he don't like you as much as he does even though you treat them weird and get pissed at them for wondering around in your stuff. They just wonder how you come and go without knowing.....they be attacking people who hate us. I don't know what his problem is but they had to live with Marsha in some damn apartment.....they saw all these people come and go and agree to your mental predicament. They scarred each of them with their claws.......she told them not to tell you but they ain't worried about it so much. Especially the bigger one....she was like real mean to them and pulled on them and hurt them a lot. She wanted to make you think you would do such but they were relieved when you came and cried a lot......cause they were tortured. The donkey and the boar lady thought that was stupid to torment them and that buffalo lady hit Marsha with some kind of nailed board. She zapped you with a cattle prod! You have the electrical scar on your ribs! She poked you with instruments into the side of your breast. All that shit just to make you think you were fucked up like her. That you would do what she did. That you were her......and she used that damn name. And everybody hate them all so much it is ridiculous. They hate them so much....they are in shock of how they believed them and trusted them.....when you was walking there was a riot in the neighborhood you stay at! All these people came out and told him to go to hell and die. They asked them why they were like that and condemned their actions. Some people came to see it and the police told them they would not help them because they were afraid of the crowds. You weren't there but some people you think of as herbal patients were......they didn't say anything....they were looking for you cause they needed to ask you about gardening or something like that....something about how something grows but they figure just to leave it alone....they figure it really probably isn't a good idea since what was going on....they couldn't believe what was happening. They didn't say a damn thing and left separately thinking it was the worst damn dream they ever had! They keep thinking it's all a bad dream but it wasn't. You walked back and everybody who was hiding and crying stopped when you walked by they houses.....you were so angry for them wondering who did that to them but there was nothing you could do.....then the police was killing people who trusted them and they were killing each other and all those people who saw you walking thought at the last moment they should of went your way.....bunches of people left town and stayed elsewhere.....that little snake be traveling a lot and striking at bugs freaking out all of them too. You wonder if you ever see him again and you be thinking you hurt his little tail butt. He was a tough wild motherfucker too.....he cry a lot for all the other snakes and he wonders how he got there and if you were a dream. You just think of him as your baby though.....then animals be testing you laying out snakes and spiders to see if you touch them. They like all freaky looking and dark.....but you don't do that. You know the poisonous and venomous ones are cute and petite. Just like you I guess! They think that is the strangest thing. You only touch snakes if they got fangs and poison. You only pick up spiders that are dangerous.....they just be watching you say hi to the ones that ain't cause you figure out the scary looking ones is their only protection is appearance.......that was funny. Some running guy figures that out too cause he wanted to touch a snake on the place you walk and he was thinking about how stupid that lady Marsha is and how he fell for her tricks and how you look like you understand him and that you look like you know what he eats and you ain't happy about it and he in trouble about that. So he start understanding it's beer and soda....but he don't know how to stop. So he just locks it into something and flushes the key down the toilet. You call him Rocky cause he remind you of that boxing movie that be like from another world. Some people come and bring poisonous snakes in crates while you sleeping and lay them on you and they like pinch your cheeks and cuddle and you be like cursing a lot but they don't care. People be watching thinking it the strangest dream they ever had. And they bring a big boy an anaconda and he like from the zoo and he the worst one cause he pick you up and rock you like a baby. And you told him you was too big for that and he shake his head a lot. And his head was as big as yours! And he got a real tongue like a fucking dog! You told them they was like lizards without feet you could see and that they were children's pets. That's true too....they like kids a lot. They didn't have a cobra though.....there was some kind of snake with a set of striped colors, red, yellow, and I think it was black.....it was weird and you said that. That one don't pinch your cheeks or treat you like that but he kept tapping you trying to wake you up. He was trying to tell you something.....he touched your hair......he nudged your nose.....you ate some medicine strawberries with it's poisonous fluid on it and thought it was freaking sugar. That did something to you......some doctor did it just to make sure you would be immune to any weird animals that might attack. He thinks all the animals is going to change and go against the people except the ones you like touching. Your ears and temples ache from people fucking with loud banshee sonar.....they be trying to fuck with you and you just blast back and the bats help and it kills a lot of damn people by them exploding.....some bats be looking for you.....thinking you one that needs them so bad. They think you don't eat enough and they know you are really sad."

"....where is Nemie?"

"In some kind of trance where she is feeling everything you all feeling. She is going mad."

"I need Nemie like a mother."

"........she don't have a body anymore either and the pyramid is all fucked up....the metal one."

".....do I got to be the guy on the dollar?"

"Yeah."

"The last one didn't even have a picture. It just says Dollar on it."

"......I thought it was a good idea."

"....why a dead guy and why that one dead guy we call the cherry chopper?"

"The cherry represents blood filled worlds."

"........washing a ton of people off."

"That house is stupid."

"The kids fucked with it for a while and we thought it was boring."

"........I got to live there?"

"If you remember."

"I will run away and hire actors."

"Great."

"...."

"Bananas."

".........."

"Freaking bananas."

"...then they all went inside when they realized they didn't have a plan....the police left and didn't say anything and the ambulance and the firemen cause they was all volunteers or something.....they asked if anybody else lived in that house with them but the neighbors lied and said no cause they hide you."

"Shit."

"They got to so nobody fucks with you. Anyways they know you be safe if shit go down. They figure they know everything about that house and what you got and what you need so they just leave it at that but the two people there think it's cause they don't say anything for you to be able to get away so they don't say nothing. Them people watching can't believe it. They just wanted to talk about gardening."

"....are they a family or something?"

"Something like that but they bitch and curse at each other and fight a lot. That be really stressful and they be weird."

"Yeah."

"........but they stop thinking about other stuff and they saw the Zombie Truck. They thought about you when they saw it and realized you liked it. It was like a sign but they just thought it was the damnedest weirdest thing they ever witnessed........they knew the end was coming when the red guy saw it."

"....Zombie Truck?"

"It look like it from a video game you and Rube made. It is so ugly and strange. It just sit there at night. You like it."

".....what is it's purpose?"

"....not sure and neither were they. They all know shit about construction and they just thought it was weird to sit there."

"Hhhhmmm...."

"So they be trying to get rid of people who be too curious about you and they be getting into trouble with them realizing who they thought was friends wasn't at all.....and they wonder how you came about and how all of it fall downs to show itself but they leave you out of it.....cause you really had nothing to do with that at all but they be like blaming you for dumb shit. And saying shit twisting it around cause other people be telling them that. They be like possessed by dumb people so you be trying to be really careful and keep to yourself. Who knows how long that will last cause about that point I was so angry I just got up and left three counts....one for our world...one for Zyna...and this trance."

"....I wonder if anybody there will ever figure it out."

".......even if they do it's still a world we got to live."

"...........what of my husband?"

"He watches you on a screen. He sees you naked and it comes and goes to what you doing.....it stay there with him for a long time....you be seeing things he know is not there but he knows it will go away you just got to fight it with your mind. He be seeing things you don't and wonder if you will ever see it like him. He be seeing something he really think is important and something you so worried about.....he be seeing your insecurities and your possessions.....he be seeing how people treat you and think it is cause they never seen anybody like you then he know it's more than that.....they really know something but takes a while to figure it out. He sees some boys come to see you while you are staring into darkness half awake and they all be like liking you but you don't really think much about it. You just think they are looking for something....he don't really like that at all....he kind of wonders where his friend Zyna is at cause you are deaf and blind....some people who come to visit you while you are doing whatever and they be like sleepwalking when they come to you and they be liking you when they awake and you be like drinking tea and they sit there and think with you about shit and you tell them you know there are men sitting with you and you ask them if they know you are married and they don't answer and then you ask them if there are any real women there and they just look at you and you tell them you are a damn horrified homophobe and that if those women try anything you will shank them and they already know that and everybody say that you the worst homophobic person they ever saw and that they know you do not like other women at all in a sensual demeanor and that you are so damn angry at the world for that and that you don't understand why anybody would want to fuck their own self and that you cannot accept it and that you will not but you will not say anything due to prejudice. You prefer everybody to be natural instead of forcing themselves to be who they not and what they not......and they be like kissing you and shit! That be making your husband pretty angry......but you used to people kissing you cause the neighbors do that and some other people and he see that and figure it like normal for you so he stop being angry but it was really weird for me too cause I don't kiss you. They all kiss you like on your forehead and your cheeks and your nose but nowhere else so he get a good look at that too. Then he see Zyna come in there and pick you up over his shoulder and walk around a while checking out everything and you be like saying how it is impossible for him to pick you up cause you dreaming and you be saying you ate too many coconuts and fried food and that you be like too big but he just laugh and carry you around. But he expecting you to be lighter so he can do it more but you be like in disbelief and like whatever.....then he just disappear. Doctors come to visit you and tell you things about yourself....."

"......while I am sleeping?"

"Yeah."

"Fuck my stomach hurts."

"Yeah that was a lot of weight to lose. You lost like a hundred and twenty actual pounds."

"....that really sucked. It took over eight calendar months to lose it and I did everything I could I thought it would never come off and we lived together inside that world while people were looking at us....my Husband and I....Zen and I....he gained eighty pounds."

"............well Mr. Red can't believe you were ever that big.....but he know you don't really know when people is big.....or what that is for anybody else just that you used to be big and that it sucked a lot and you hated carrying it and you really wanted to get rid of it. You be like wondering why people be looking at you like that and why people be feeling like that but we know people got big fucking bones and body parts....that's not you. You got little bones and little body parts. That's not you and that's what he needs to get soon or else he just isn't going to understand his own body cause everybody be getting pissed off at him! They be like cursing at him and telling him to get real. They tell him you are just not a person made to carry any weight other than your.....self!"

"That's true. So what is up with this extra stuff?"

"Damn I don't know but the girl I am watching is sort of sick and battling the thought of hunger.....and that man just don't really understand that weighing a lot is a feeling and not a look......he is really trapped in cosmetic appearances and he knows you the girl from the magazine.....he doesn't see you though he sees a pictured person.....he sees a monumental fame and he sees fame is something other than acting like an asshole......he just don't understand that you are a girl who eats tuna and bananas and punches boiled eggs."

"........what does he think about knowing the person who is hiding from a picture?"

"...he knows you are hiding well for now. He sort of sees everybody's little sister and some kind of struggle but he doesn't understand that he isn't a big person just carrying extra weight that you can feel.....it's not that much....it's soda and beer."

".........what does he think of fame?"

".....he never cared for it and thought it was stupid but he knows you just didn't know how big of a deal it was to be a damn girl on a damned magazine. He understand you didn't like wearing a lot of that stuff you just did for everybody else and that most of them pictures they see was accidental like just people who catch you.....and that you had a damn morphine problem like all hell.....cause that is very evident you want that shit while you realizing people be looking at you for iconic clothing....you be like so angry about that......you just got this look like it's painful to give yourself away......that model is a person and everybody knows it. That model is a woman and everybody knows it. That model is an untouchable personality and that is what makes her famous.....that model is a silent girl.....that model is somebody who can't get away....that model looks.....the same. Good god in hell you be like so amazed at how dramatic it is but Cordelia set it up like that so.....just to fuck with people. You be wondering where they get all those pictures. Some of them ain't......well.....it shows you wear latex things on your face and some of them is real like family pictures....and it looks like you. Oh well though you just be thinking it cool so whatever and I know it's you and we know it's you but you don't know it's you you just know that was something you did and your husband be freaking out cause he saw it for a moment and he remember them pictures were some he took while you was like.....together......and he is a photographer.....well. That's that."

"But....nobody will believe it."

".....that's your ploy....that's your secret.....but that's who you are and you can never get away from her...."

"Why such a big deal in....that kind of world?"

".....I don't know."

"........why?"

"....cause she is relative to their nature."

"Oh..."

"Some people presume her dead but all them see some pictures that people took while you was.....walking........just walking and being an anomaly like a ghost."

"Then they die."

"Yeah cause they suck so you end up being the only one left."

"Only one of what left?"

"You the only god damn model in the world girl. You don't compete and you don't share. You can't.....except you like to choose people from the field to join you......just find them and ask them to join you.....but they do it for you."

".......what does it matter so much to the people who think she's dead?"

"...cause they haters......."

"Wow they suck."

"Sure do...."

"..."

"They worried about that a lot cause they understand people tried to kill you and that's why you guys decided to kill the shots.....but they can't do that there.....it's different there.....and you did it for AIDS awareness and you did it for addiction and you made it look like that but you're still there and healthy and that's when they see the years and numbers and they be taking a lot of shit for the way you look. Cause people be telling them that little teenage people cannot be doing what you do but you be like ten thousand times they age for real. Oh well! They suck."

"......"

"Eat bananas girl."